November 2010
32 posts
worst thanksgiving ever.
You're right.
Everything you just said was right. You’re the only person that has called me out on it. My insecurities, how I’m always down on myself, how I’m negative about almost everything that goes on in my life and how its fcking annoying to be around me when I’m like that. So, I apologize. I’m sorry that you’re always that one that has to say the same things to me over and over again to make me feel better. I’m sorry that you have to put up with me like that. I’m sorry that I never actually change my ways when I say I’m going to. You’re right. Even though its hard to hear, especially coming from you..the way I’ve been living my life and acting is stupid.
I need to start accepting myself for who I am and not dwell on my flaws. I need to change. I need to be positive and tell myself that everything is going to be okay instead of running to you whenever I have a problem. I need to keep trying when things don’t go well for me the first time. I need to follow through when I say I’m going to do something instead of making excuses of why I can’t do it. Since I’m always tripping about things like grades and my weight. I need to study more to get good grades and I need to go running and do more physical activities to lose weight. I need to be more assertive and take more initiative in life. If I want to meet new people I should put my self out there and not be worried about what they think of me. I need to stop being so reserved and thinking that I’m a burden to people and that I’m bugging them when I’m with them. Especially you.
I know that you could get other girls and everything but the fact that you chose me should make me happy and feel special. It does, but I need to stop thinking that you would drop me whenever I make a mistake. I need to stop thinking that I’m gonna lose you at any moment. You told me yourself that you’re not gonna give up on me, give up on us anymore. I need to start believing it more because I know that its true.
So, note to self:
- start taking initiative, dont let life pass you by.
- start being more optimistic.
why do i fck up so much? sighhh :l
Listen
ABOUT A WEEK AGO, Claire (my love) was excited to tell me about Ne-Yo’s song “One In A Million” which she has absolutely fell in love with. I can tell because when she listens to it, she automatically smiles and starts dancing around (which then, makes me smile and dance too).
She always said that she could imagine me singing this song, so tonight I decided to learn a bit of it and record it for her. :)
BABY, I know at this moment, you’re sound asleep but I hope when you wake up in the morning, this will put a gigantuous smile on your face! I love you and I know I don’t sound that good (it’s really late! :S 4am), but all in all, I hope you enjoy it and I want you to know that you truly are, one in a million and i love you with all my heart!
And I also hope that you tumblroos and twitterbots enjoy it too! :) God Bless!
<3 Jeremy Passion
Unthinkable (I'm Ready)
Alicia Keys ft Drake
You give me a feeling that I’ve never felt before.
Play
I’m scared that I’m not strong enough to go through this on my own.
I am completely drained of energy.
tellingyou
Jenny Suk
Snippet of my original song “Telling You”
—I wrote this song in the beginning of September and uploaded a YT video of it. I would like to say thank you to everyone who’s loving the song & supporting my original material. I love you guys forever & ever.
Vocals: Jenny Suk
Guitar: Tim Ferguson (April Chase)
Keys: Jeremy “Passion” Manongdo
Drums/Bass: JMIC
Production: Adrian Per
I am so thankful for you guys for helping this track come together to its completion. Yall are the best.iTUNES release date TBA =).
-Jeni<3
“ Seconds make minutes, make hours, make days - I’ve added it all up a million ways, multiply that times the fact that when I’m with you I feel brand new. That’s why I travel all this way for you. There ain’t nothing strong enough to keep me away from you. There can be a wall of fire, ten feet or higher, I would just walk on through. Where there once was only room for one, wherever, there will be two.”
—David Ryan Harris, For You (via chelseababy)
3 Goals.
1. Focus on school, get good grades, studystudystudy to go to socal!
2. I am super unhealthy and out of shape now. Eating out too much and since I don’t play tennis anymore I don’t get any exercise. SO, I am going to start running every morning @ 7am around the neighborhood with my sister. okay? okay. I hope I can stick to this. SIGH. :l
3. Be a better person.
Day 10: One person you can trust.
1. my dad
Day 9: 2 things you wish you could do
- Turn back time
- Do something to make you proud
